Jade ponders why she finds it difficult to write in her journal. She knows writing anything is good practice, but she wants to write in particular about her feelings and frustrations. She wants to tell stories that are personal to her, but, despite her stubborn hoping that she might be able to do so one day, she is attacked entirely within her own mind by feelings - feelings that she is incapable of telling her emotions accurately, that anything she says about herself would overstate the struggles she feels she has to deal with, and that maybe those struggles are not actually real in the end after all and writing about them would actually come to the effect of lying about herself, misconstruing an image of someone who is not actually that hard off at the end of the day. Jade finds it incredibly difficult to argue that those obstructive thoughts might not be grounded in reality, but she knows she must set them aside anyway. They are not constructive; when they take her attention and destroy her motivation, they prevent her from getting any practice in writing done at all. Perhaps they are in some sense valid, implying that it would indeed be misleading or somehow harmful for her to share her personal writing. She hopes that is not the case, and that she can prove to herself so; but, while writing in her journal, it is not necessary to do so. She knows that while writing privately, she can set aside those worries, because her writing cannot do harm when no one but her will ever read it.