awe man umsies
no way is it the time right now if youre gone to sleep lol but i maybe wanna talk to you about ummmmmmmm erm. some prehistoric moments where we didnt end up getting to see peoples ajsjsjsjsdj </3

its just some slightly sad shenanigans i think i wanna share because i am SO SO SO FRIGGIN EXCITED FOR YOU TWO but itll be easier for me to engage if you know about erm, the times it didnt work out for me... cuz like....... im not lost hope or nothing at ALL it's just been difficult on us LOL

you can always talk but I rlly rlly need to sleep LOL

YEAH YEAH YEAH NO PROBLEM
I HOPE U SLEEP WELLLlllllll

OH like failed meetup attempts?

YEAH basically
its only happened twice really but uknow

aaaa do tell

REALLY i erm i dont wanna keep u up later than you want sjsjzjsj.....

I CAN BE PRETTY QUICK BUT I WONT BE THAT QUICK

normal two text messages to send jheezus christ </del></del></del>

the first time i dont hardly remember at all.... it was right right before the pandemic so it would have kind of been a scare if we did get to go, but a loooong time friend was like... visiting canada for a bit and we were gonna have a chance to like, fly over to her place and visit for a while

but we were pretty young and there were some shenanigans to do with getting proper ID set up, and we ended up dallying a bit too long and missed the opportunity... the only thing i remember is that we felt like it was really really our fault, and we only recognized it was too late all at once, and we felt really pathetic and ashamed

the second time was a lot more recent though, like march this year

even though we knew financially it probably wasn't going to work out, there was... like... an inklin of a possibility that we could meet and visit our longest-ever close friend. she [... was] going on a road trip and visiting some family/friends and getting in place to watch the total solar eclipse

the odds weren't great but we figured money-wise we might be able to do it, so... well.... we had to get the bigger thing out of the way. which was that we didn't have a passport.

the thing is that we only had a few weeks to actually, uh, make it happen, because the prospect of visiting at all only became Real pretty close to like... well... when she was gonna be there. and when the eclipse was happening

and it was like. we KNEW it was possible, to get a passport, in that timeframe. we really worked everything out. it was absolutely one hundred percent possible

and it mattered so so so so much, to whisper and especially to lanolin, to get that passport, because...

like, no matter whether we got to go on the trip or not, they still needed to do their darn best to get that passport

because they felt like they were, um, like, helping set to rest the part of us that still... felt hurt and ashamed for... not taking care of their own identification arrangements when they needed to, the first time

basically avenging it haha

and guess what? u know what?
it was a freaking scramble
but we DID get that passport on time. we got it. we GOT it.

.....and in the end for money reasons among one or two other things, we still weren't able to go

still we really really actually - they did it, they did that thing they were setting out to do, they really made it happen

we had a ton of kind of hard conversations and sort of - sad moments - around that - cuz both us and our friend were going through some difficult stuff right then, really, besides just doing whatever we could to get that passport... so.... its just its a strange, um, kind of bittersweet and difficult time that we still - really grew from - but it's hard to think back on

UHH YEAH we ended up having like. we accepted it and moved on fairly alright all things considered ajsjjddj

we kind of .... we got the most important thing, right. but it was like. ough, too. yeah