aut. jade - back

relationships no context

GG: god yeah, i really hope i dont let myself get into that kind of relationship again. its not healthy for either end and i do not have the life force to sustain any part of it.

GG: fucked up that i dont know if cuddles are a thing i can do now. i sure cant read or write the word without Bad Feelings

GG: oh yeah, please for fucks sake never refer to me as "nebula" as a more intimate or serious name. my name is not nebula, its jade, and calling me one when you usually call me the other is pretty hugely bad for me
GG: (nobody who can read this has done so, dw)

relationships, actual noncon, caps/vent

GG: FUCK we actually
GG: had sex after?? AFTER THAT??? AFTER HE WAS TOUCHING HIMSELF AND GOT ME HORNY FOR IT????

GG: im fine/grounded right now but
GG: what the FUCK

GG: we spoke about it a couple days after i broke the relationship up (which itself was a while later and not directly tied to the vc sex).

i think one thing which felt a bit off was um, shortly before the first time we sex'd? ooor i dont remember the exact events really, because i have trash memory, but it was near then

as we were leading up to actually asking/confirming that that was something wed like to do together-- well, the flirting itself was cool and fun and im not complaining or upset about that, but i feel like you also... okay i think i remember

were we like, napping together at the time?

annnd like, at a certain point i noticed like-- horny noises from your end, and they seemed really intentional and like you were making them specifically so i could hear them

which im pretty sure you verified laaater, once we agreed on doing stuff, like that you hadnt really been subtle about it

and - that was a bit weird!

that was something i felt you should have cleared with me before doing anything, especially before exposing me—it felt a bit unsolicited, let alone having proper healthy consent

GG: rest of the convo around that
GG: (he saw and acknowledged what he did was wrong. i genuinely believe he wasnt trying to do anything bad, didnt see how he was being harmful. but. fuck.)

yeah, i can believe they werent like, consciously intentional or anything

but that was pretty weird-- like, okay, im going to admit it was kind of nice? i generally like people feeling horny at least adjacently by me, or around me—but also yeah, you can tell how it felt off and a bit bad too

i understand needing to do that and honestly its absolutely your own bodily autonomy and if you gotta get it out then id never judge :P but

if youre going to expose me to it in any way - i.e, by being on mic or in my presence

thats something you need to clear with me first

same with anyone else!