mh, interpersonal, kinda gripey

GG: *sighs*
GG: ive been trying to work on better communication when im talking about my own (negative) feelings, making sure im not speaking over or imposing an obligation that the person im talking to deal with my feels
GG: but... i dont know, i wish if im not doing anything wrong i could get at least a little bit of acknowledgement or affection or assurance or anything... especially when the feelings dont have to do with them, when its just me having a difficult time because of my own mh problems!

mh, interpersonal, gripey, plurality/celeste

GG: ive had this floating badeline part-of-me idea-person sort of around for a while specifically when it comes to interpersonal things like this, too...
GG: this sense that im doing my best and putting a lot of work in, and in return not getting my own needs or wishes acknowledged beyond the bare minimum
GG: this part-of-me is really good at not paying attention to the surrounding context as to why someone elses behavior is less black and white good/bad than we sometimes feel it is, but honestly i hear where shes coming from because they are things i wish were different and i am a bit upset that they arent! i dont want to deny that
GG: i just also dont want to leave it entirely up to her, or me-with-her-emotions-overpoweringly-strong, to make the decisions as to how to improve things for ourselves in a healthy, nonharmful way

mh, interpersonal, gripey

GG: part of it is that i said id been enjoying spending the night together (despite not doing much of significance) and that i hoped they did too, and they didnt reply to that at all
GG: it was in parentheses behind some other stuff so maybe they just didnt remember but... yeah, oof

mh, interpersonal, gripey (?)

GG: maybe its just too late and i should explicitly set out to not have any expectations of people when its a couple hours past when they really should be going to sleep. i dunno, could be