mh, interpersonal, vent

GG: every time i let my feelings even exist they just take over everything. i ask how somebody is doing then derail it with my own feelings toward a situation they were part of and get on a fucking tangent for two hours before even realizing that i had originally asked how THEY were doing. i know just basic effing etiquette (on my end) would fix this but it feels hopeless. it feels like i cant have emotions without letting them take me over and hurt everyone i care about.

kf etc, bad, not directly referencing anything current/past but y'know

GG: well, now that im having a go at existing in real life im essentially shutting down (i.e. finalizing) the music wiki, and hopefully without any fanfare. a year ago, or even a few months ago, i probably wouldve been convinced this is an overreaction, but at this point i really cant say. but existing as a figurehead online is not something i can handle whatsoever, so its something im stepping away from before it becomes significant.

kf etc, mh

GG: this honestly doesnt hurt as much as it maybe should?
GG: i dunno, ive had the feeling this would be where things end up for a looong time
GG: and it really does suck!
GG: but i dunno
GG: i need to move on
GG: like i was saying, being some kind of notable person online isnt something i need as part of that