aut. jade - back

relationships, self-subtooting

GG: type of dyke who enjoys flirting and deeply values intimate and personal connections, but cannot stand anything which sounds like mushy dating shit

relationships, identity, self-subtooting

GG: trying to figure out the line between "loves everyone dearly and would never limit self to just one person to lean on and deeply care about, cant even conceptualize that as a thing which makes sense besides being horribly restricting and painful" and "aro, actually"

relationships

GG: one thing i know is that i cannot be the person someone depends on to feel happy. if you "havent felt this good in ages", or fuck, truly happy at ALL in so long by your own words, i cannot be the person you depend on to bring you that. no matter how kind and genuinely caring and empathic a person you clearly are.

relationships, sui-related
(hypothetical? nobody personal, not me)

GG: like, i seriously cannot willingly take on the responsibility of being the reason somebody stays aliveā€”i know that sounds cold but i dont have the capability to handle that, yknow! i dont know if anyone does
GG: its not a healthy relationship and i cant just walk into one knowing thats what is waiting for me, not if all the signs are there that i am the goodness in someones world right now and they want- yknow, like they expect me to be there for them, and if i ever break away theyll get unstable