quirk [GG], dreams

having just woken up from a dream is so weird!! its that mind state where you know youre awake, but it would be reaaaally easy to slip back into being (half-)asleep, so more often than not that ends up happening to a degree

and pseudo-dreams — like, when youre dreaming something but still awake, since you havent gotten out of bed — are ALSO weird. its like youre sensing things from both the dream (like any normal dream) and reality at the same time. today i woke up and was just lying in bed, half watching the sun rise and half imagining some video game; i was imagining the music playing with that game reeeeally distinctly, but then i heard some soft construction sound from outside the window, and the music just. instantaneously stopped. and it was only then that i registered that, oh shit, that music i was hearing was totally in my head, lol

quirk [GG]

its also a lot easier to hold internal conversation when ive just woken up. part of that could be a normal organic thing where the brain filters thoughts out less when it hasnt 100% booted up? another part could be just the silence and space of the early morning; my family hadnt woken up yet today so it was still really quiet, and i could clearly focus on brain stuff. (which is tangent to another advantage inherent to sleep: less time conscious → less sensory input, less things youve put time into thinking about → easier to focus on happenings inside brain, instead of wandering to all the other million things around you catching your attention)

it kind of makes me realize how much i miss having time to just think to myself, ha. quarantines meant everyones been home all the time, so its rarely quiet in this house, save for 1) in the morning and 2) in the night (but then im like, sleeeeeepy and tiiiired, and have the baggage of a whole day of thoughts and senses on top of me)