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Three moons, Starflight.

Arrrgh. This is so wrong!

Why does it have to be complicated?

I'm not okay with it. I'm not.

So why do I feel so mixed up?


So that's why he treated me like I was special.

That's why he worried about me.

I could have seen it coming.

If I had different scales... If I weren't always nice...

He liked what he saw, and treated me special.

I guess that's all there is to love.


Brother. That's all I thought he was.

Maybe that's still what he is, to me.

But I thought I was his sister.

I'm not really his sister, am I?

If that's right, and I don't love him the way he loves me...

Am I just... nobody?


Friends — that's it, right?

I can still be his friend.

I hope he doesn't feel betrayed.


I don't like worrying how people feel about me.

I'm just Sunny. Isn't that enough?

I don't betray. I don't hurt. That's not me.

Why does feeling differently make me someone I'm not?

Doesn't Sunny get to have her own feelings, too?


Wait. It's not all that simple.

I can't get caught up feeling gloomy.

My friends care about me. That's true.

Starflight cares about me. Now I'm seeing how true.

That's okay. I care about my friends. Starflight, too.


Alright. He likes me a lot. That's okay.

Enough to want to stay with me forever.

Every dragon wants to stay with someone.

Enough to want — eggs, with me. Okay.

Every dragon wants eggs with someone.

Right?


I wish it weren't so messy.

I like him. I like all my friends, but...

I don't know. Someday I'll want a dragonet.

I know he doesn't think I'm just a mate.

But why would he — oh, I can't help this.

Why do I feel so useless?


Everything is so scary.

I don't want to stay with anyone forever.

I don't want to find out I'm too scared for eggs.


I don't like Starflight as much as he likes me.

But... I do like him. And I think I'm just different.

I'll probably never be truly in love with anyone.

I sort of want him to be like me. Then it'd be easier.

But I'm just... weird. Mostly, I want him to understand me.


I don't want him to feel as though he has to hide his feelings for my sake.

I don't want to hide my feelings for his sake, either.

I want him to keep loving me however he does...

Even if the ways I love him aren't quite the same.

I hope he understands.